I’ve liked Tommy every since I first laid eyes on him. At the time Frog no1 was trying to impress me and invited me to the penthouse where Tommy’s brother lives. Only three guys live at 1301 but the penthouse is regularly “opened” for parties, pre-drinks or after parties. It is indeed pretty breathtaking on first impression, the view of Oxford Street buzzing from one of the two balconies helps, but then it quickly becomes a second home as everyone who sets foot here is made very welcome.
Tommy is definitely one of the major factors that made Pelican street such a happy and comfortable place for me. I don’t really know why. I guess I just immediately got along with him. Maybe kind of like a life-size teddy bear you can confide in. Although Tommy gives very good hugs, he doesn’t really look like a teddy bear. That’s where the problem starts. Tommy has sex appeal.
After I stopped seeing frog no1, I was crushed. Not because I was saying goodbye to him, but because I was saying goodbye to his friends. And to be absolutely honest, they were one of the reasons why I held on to him a little longer than necessary. Shallow I know.
Luckily for me, one of the regulars at pelican street, Jack, decided to call me up out of the blue one night. It was a very stupid prank that made me get out of bed on a Sunday at 10pm. But it worked and I was glad I fell for it cause got to hang out with him and Tommy that night.
Since then, we’ve all been seeing each other more and more, the group got bigger as Jack invited his co-workers, I instantly became best friends with Helen, that tall blonde Scottish babe whom I had a lot in common with, and frog no1 became persona-non-grata.
Tommy and I were slowly getting closer up until that Saturday when we went to party on a boat. In the early morning, our group ended the night at 1301 and the two of us spent some time alone on the second balcony. “Should we talk about the giant elephant in the room?” As he said that, I fell into his arms: “Tommy I love you, but nothing can ever happen between us. I don’t want to lose you.”
Cliché, I know.
But it couldn’t be more true! For the first time in my life I’m trying to restrain myself and value friendship instead of attraction. It’s a pretty big achievement for me. But I’ve learned my lesson and already lost too many friends because I let myself be tempted and slept with one of them. I was lucky enough to get Tommy, Jack and the gang back, I wasn’t going to risk it one more time.
I might get harder, it might get easier, I don’t know but as Tommy once said to me: “don’t shit were you eat”.